Sunday, June 10, 2007

OMFG~!!!!!

MAKI DROPPED BY MY WORK PLACE TO PEI ME TILL I FINISH WORK~!!!!!

TOUCHED OR~

darn i cried~

he never told me that he's coming down~ T_T

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 10:19:00 pm__

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this afternoon at home
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Mum said... "its fathers day~" *hint hint*

i replied... "so?"

mum asked me... "never spend some money and bring him out?"

my reply is... "waste money."

mum laughed...

then i said... "what's the point? he doesn't appreciate it anyway."

__________________________

some what not~ lol~

my eyes is okie already~ =)

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 4:00:00 pm__

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Saturday, June 09, 2007

But if i let you go~

I will never know~

What my life would be~

Holding you close to me~

Will I ever see~

You smiling back at me~

How will I know~

If i let you go~

Me talking to Maki "darling where are you now?"
Maki replied "at tampines mall eating."
Me... "huh?! at tempinese mall?! why never come find me?"
maki... "i just finish compy."
me... "then later wanna come look for me?"
maki... "tomorrow got compy at bukit timah. so i'm going back to bukit batok coz from bukit batok to there take bus only abt 10 mins."
me... "... then you not coming to look for me later?"
maki... "i eat finish then call you."
me... "oh... ok... bye bye..."

*feels damn freaking dissapointed*

1 hour later?
Maki called saying he walking home already~ to bukit batok's hse~
my heart sank rock bottom~

seems like i'm not important~
compy is~
the messages i sent him~
have replies of few words~
maybe i'm just trash~
mum~ grandma and aunt are pressuring me loads~
they kept asking me if maki has found a job~
then mum added in saying its already been like 1 year and he still hasn't found a job~ how are you gonna survive like that?

I'm like a rubberband that has been stretched to the limits~
I feel so damn freaking tired~
Darling,
you said that you'd piece and mend back my heart that's in smeethereens~ saying that since its your doing~ you should be the one to mend it back and continue our love story~

but...

Darling, now my heart is in ashes~ how are you gonna put them back... can't you sense the disappointment i had when i talked to you over the phone? haiz~

I have a Dead Heart.

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 11:20:00 pm__

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

fuck~

my left eye is super swollen~

zzzz~

dunno what happened to it~

sad case~

zzzz~

haiz~

fuck~

i just got myself more EMO~

zzzz~

boss is being damn scary~

haiz~

argh~!!!

slept 2 hrs woke up~

and slept another 2 hrs woke up~

from 8 am all the way till 4.20pm~

its all like this~

i wonder how i lasted till now anyway~

haiz~

whatever la~

thinking abt what happened recently~

i feel DAMN FUCKING sad~

its like i'm just plain trash to everyone~

whatever~

FUCK~

i shall REMEMBER WHAT I SAID IN THE PREVIOUS POST~

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 10:36:00 pm__

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fuck fukity fuck fuck fuck~!!

whatever~

zzzz~

damn fucking emo~

zzzz~

fuck~

I'm angry at myself~

I'm sad to be myself~

I'm so fucking EMO that i went up against a wall, punched, kicked and banged it~

keep holdinh back tears~

dammit~

i will never ever ever drop any tears infont of anyone~ anymore~

I swear cross my heart and hope to die~

I SHALL LEARN TO NEVER EVER SHOW MY FEELINGS~

I SHALL LEARN TO SMILE AND LAUGH EVEN THOUGH I'M HURT~

I SHAll LEARN TO NEVER EVER TRUST ANYONE~

I SHALL LEARN TO NEVER EVER DEPEND ON ANYONE ANYMORE~

I SHALL LEARN HOW TO SLEEP ETERNALLY~

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 4:48:00 am__

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Sunday, June 03, 2007

feeling damn emo~

knew it after capl that i'm gonna be sliced off from the team~

didn't know it'd be this soon~

just saw the message~

"lz, sry we will b sub-ing u out from the team.."

super emo~

haiz~

i dunno what to say la~

knew its all natural~

but~

damn~

i cried~

zzzz~

*bang my head against a wall*

where's maki when i need him~

haiz~

that's it~

ciao~

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 5:44:00 pm__

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